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Friday, September 25, 2020

Perceptive Truths & Ultimate Truth


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When I walk outside of my home today, it will be 100 degrees outside. I will dress accordingly and I will go about my day with this influence in mind. With it being the end of September, I am certain there are many people in the world who will walk outside and see something completely different. Perhaps it is changing leaves, rain, a chill in the air. Or it could be spring and new growth all around. Some people won’t notice the weather, some might not even leave their house. Some people will see crime and feel unsafe outside, others will walk out naked, arms raised to the sky. Some people are faced with not even having a home. It is safe to say that 7.8 billion people will walk out of their homes today and see something unique to their circumstance, location, obligations, and mental attitude. This is something we can all agree upon; We can all grasp the concept that we are all seeing something different from one another today, and we are all having to take action according to what we see. These are all perceptive truths. Facts that are based on what is actually happening in your human experience. These facts may contradict each other due to where you are in the world, right? Here’s where it gets messy.

If I were to tell you that my experience of walking outside in 100 degree weather was the ultimate truth for the world because it is what I am experiencing, you and I would begin to argue. Because unless you are living right next door to me, that is not your experience, it is not your truth. If you live anywhere north of me, cooler temperatures outside your front door is a fact. If you also believed your experience was the ultimate truth, you might think I was crazy for wearing shorts and flip flops. You might begin to advise me to prepare for snow soon. You simply would not understand why I am sweating so much and want air conditioning. And I would not quite understand you why you would want to wear a jacket and turn your heater on. There would be a huge discrepancy between us because neither of us would take in account what the other is seeing when they walk outside. The thing is, we would both be right. It really is 100 degrees outside where I live. It really is different outside where you live. The argument would go nowhere- so is it possible there are many more realities than we are aware of? Yes. And these realities are perceptive truths. 

Here’s another example. If someone walked out of their house this morning and their neighborhood felt safe, and they forgot to lock their car door but everything was fine- no one stole anything, they would drive off feeling pretty good about the world. They may not know that someone else would be walking out of their house feeling frightened. Because where they live people do break into cars, houses, rob and murder. If the two of them insisted that the things they saw outside of their front doors was the ultimate reality, they would begin to argue actual facts against each other and… they would both be right. Neither of them will know what is best for the other. Because they are not actually in the other person's neighborhood, it would be very difficult for them to grasp what it is they should do about each others situation. 

These are very small examples of millions of different realities and millions of perceptive truths going on within our world. When I hear people argue about fundamental issues, this is what I see: I see someone yelling outside of their front door about what they are seeing, and they are absolutely correct. Things are that way for them. I am able to see that they are experiencing a different day than I am. If we can understand and accept this as easily as we can understand different seasons and weather patterns, we would be able to listen clearly to what they are yelling about without the need to correct them or convince them otherwise. We would be able to sit back and ask ourselves, “Why do they think this way? What do they see every day that gives them that perception? What are they experiencing right now that would lead them to make these statements?” Friends, this is called compassion.

As this election draws nearer, we are all well aware that there are intentions to divide us. It is imperative that we practice the art of listening to one another. People who seem to come from another planet due to their strong opinions and arguments are actually still sharing this world with you. They have been given information that they believe to be right and it is based on what they see outside of their front door. It will be completely different from your opinions because you may live with a different perspective of truth, based on different concerns outside of your front door. This is going to be a very unpopular statement but having different perceptions from other people- even if theirs seem harmful- is actually part of this experience here on planet earth. Your peace and evolution is not going to be in arguing with them. It will be in the conscious decisions you make based on your compassion.  Afterall, you’d never be able to convince me that it will be cold tomorrow. I’m right. And so are you. I know it’s weird to think that someone with a seemingly “crazy” opinion is actually “right.” But if you were raised in their “neighborhood” you’d be seeing things very similar to them. 

How to live in a world with millions of perceptive truths.

By ceasing your argument, you allow everyone (including you)  to grow and see beyond their perceptive truths. When people feel attacked or backed into a corner, they will defend themselves in a manner that is very savage. That is because we are hardwired to survive and any form of attack will trigger survival mode. No one grows when they are feeling attacked and in survival mode. No one is capable of feeling compassion, or seeing beyond their own perceptive truths while in survival mode. And because of so many fear based perceptive truths coming from the media, more people are functioning in fear and survival mode than usual. Also, arguing breeds more attack. It actually solidifies their position even further. Think about a belief you’ve had that perhaps you would have been open to seeing other points of view around it, but when someone attacked you and you had to actually stick up for it and defend it, you began to merge with it and become pigeon holed about it. Pride set in because you didn’t want to be wrong about something you just had to defend because you were attacked. The same thing is happening to the people you are arguing with. Again, they are right and so are you according to our perceptive truths. But if you ever want them to see your point of view, you’re going to have to quit pushing them further into their corner by insisting they are wrong. 

If you’ve made it this far in my blog, you might be wondering, “Well, if there are all these truths that contradict each other, where do I find a greater truth?” Great question. And this is where I welcome you into the Mystic. At some point you’re going to recognize all of these perceptive truths that are actual facts that contradict each other and you will realize that it is because of human perception. You might begin to question your own perceptions and desire to evolve beyond them more and more. When you begin to see the difference between “perceptive truths” and an “ultimate truth,” you will stop arguing. Your ability and willingness to stop arguing is actually a sign you are embarking onto a mystical path. And that will be the beginning of a  journey inward to find ultimate truth. 

Ultimate truth will set you free and beyond things like differences in weather, experience, facts and opinions. Instead you will begin to see that we are more alike than you ever realized. People become brothers and sisters to you- you see the commonality between us. Our world becomes a home. Your understanding of this home will broaden, your awareness of Divine timing and order will increase. You understand a greater plan and trust the process of life. 

Walking the path of the Mystic gives you clarity; the ability to see chaos as a symphony of growth and evolution that you begin to respect instead of fear.

This is the only way to describe to you what I see outside of my front door. From where I currently am, you are right. I see why you think the way you think. I understand why you choose the things you choose. I can grasp why you believe the things you do. And if you ever feel a call to journey further and find an ultimate truth that will set you free from all of the above, I am here to help you go further within to find it. 

Friday, September 18, 2020

Where is The Love?



Last weekend I took a quick trip to Sedona, Arizona- a short two hour drive from where I currently live. I couldn’t help but to notice something very different during this visit. There seemed to be a recurring theme of heart shaped objects, symbols, and signs everywhere I went. Without looking for them, I would see a heart shaped rock, drawing, cloud, tree, even someone’s garbage was somehow formed into the shape of a heart. It quickly became a delightful game as I would search for the next heart and smile each time one was discovered. Towards the end of my trip, I found myself in a silent meditation near a smooth river at Buddha Beach just under Cathedral Rock. It was dusk, the air was gentle, the sounds of the forest were changing from busy daytime birds to evening crickets and croaking frogs. I asked my angels, “what’s with all of the hearts?” Their answer took me deep within myself into a small and sweet journey of realization. I’d like to take you on that journey in this week's blog.

“When you are open to love, you will see evidence of it everywhere you go.” My angels began. I settled myself against a tree taking in their lovely presence and readying myself to be taught. 

“You see, when you have walls around your heart, it is as though you have filters in front of your awareness. Heart walls filter out your ability to see love in all of its forms and in all of its truth. Love could be standing right in front of you, people could be speaking to you in loving ways, the Universe could be offering you heaps and heaps of love- but because your heart walls are filtering, you will not see what is really happening around you.” I took a moment to let that set in. Could it be possible that there is more love in this world than we can perceive? 

My angels continued. “Yes, that is the way most people function. And so they see the world as though they are wearing dark sunglasses, they can’t see the magnitude of light around them, even if it is being given by another person.” This made me sad. No wonder there are so many miscommunications in our world.

A question came to my mind, so I asked “What causes us to put up such thick walls around our hearts?” 

“Many reasons” they replied, “but mostly you believe it is for self preservation. When you become hurt, your first inclination is to defend yourself against more hurt. Completely justified and understandable. We angels always want you to feel safe. However, the method that you use to keep yourself protected shuts out the entire world, including love. This causes you to feel more separated, alone, unsupported, and as we have discussed, it limits your ability to see the world as it truly is. When your perception becomes so dark, it is hard to let down those walls because you think you would be letting them down while existing in a dark loveless world. Nothing could be further from the truth.”

They paused letting my mind whirl through my own experiences of feeling unsafe and unloved. I remembered back on times in my life when I felt exceptionally isolated, depressed, and like I didn’t want to be in this world anymore. I wondered, had there been love around me then?

Answering my thoughts, my angels replied, “Yes. There has always been love around you.” I could see in my intuition a vision of my past self many years ago crying on my bedroom floor, suffering with so much emotional pain and I was begging God for help. What I couldn’t see then was what I was able to see now; that I was literally being held by hundreds of angels. As if God Himself had me in the palm of His hand. There was so much light around me, but my heart was so walled up that I couldn’t see or feel it. The isolation I felt was due to too many heart walls filtering out love. 

My angels continued softly, as they knew I was feeling vulnerable with this memory. “You walled off your heart and couldn’t feel love because you perceived that love is what hurt you. But now you understand that love never hurt you. Life wasn’t working out the way you wanted it to. People let you down. Your body was letting you down. It was the lack of love that hurt you. Darling, Love has always been here to heal you.”

Blinking back moist eyes, I replied, “Yes I know this now. My journey into the mystical realms has taught me a lot about love, what it is and what it is not.” 

“Thus,” they answered, “your heart walls have dissolved. You are open to see love wherever you go. You discovered that an open heart is the only way to live- because it is the only way you will perceive this world in truth. You have learned to feel safe surrounded by Love instead of shielding yourself against it.”

“And because I am no longer protecting myself against love,” I replied, “I am able to see signs of it everywhere I go.” 

There was an air of silent understanding as I sat and continued thinking about how I have been functioning lately. A couple years ago, I realized that I wasn't really afraid to love, I was afraid of people. It took me a long time to realize that harmful relationships don’t represent what love is- they represent what love is not. My healing needed to be around relationships- not love itself. But when we are hurt, we cast love aside when we should be running back towards it. We swear off love when we should be recommitting to it. Love is the answer because the lack of love caused the problem. Love has the power to protect you while allowing you to perceive the world in it’s true form. When we are willing to exchange walls for more love, we start to trust love. Once we begin to truly understand what love is, and what it is not, we open ourselves to understanding the entire Universe. 

“You are love,” My angels gently reentered my thoughts. “Love is your nature. Love is not about someone. It is not relationship specific. You could simply be loving with everything around you, and that is how you should be with your entire existence. Love is your quality, you can touch everything and everyone lovingly because love is who you are. Love is not about anyone else. You can walk down the street lovingly, you can do your work lovingly, it is the very way you are when you have no heart walls. And when you understand this- that love is not something you attain or get from anyone else- that it truly is your nature, you will never experience a lack of love, you will never be afraid of it- no matter how you are relating to others.”

“I am the love that I see reflecting back to me from the world.” I whispered softly. As if on cue, a majestic “caw” from a nearby crow affirmed my statement. 

If you are willing and ready to dissolve your heart walls, you will begin to see evidence of love everywhere you go too. Take the symbols of love that you see in the world as an indication that you are on the right track to having less filters. Then one day you’ll see it was there all along. Love, it’s nature unconditional, never ever leaves you. Because You are Love. May you see evidence of it everywhere you go!

Friday, September 11, 2020


Here is a video of me reading this blog:

I open the door and take a gentle step outside. A warm breeze greets me at the threshold and guides me out onto my front steps. It takes a moment for my eyes to adjust to the darkness, and making out the shadowy outlines of trees and bushes I also begin to take in the other senses. The perfume from mother earth makes its way into my nose, traveling back into my mind bringing me comfort and a slightly upturned mouth. I gaze far beyond into starlight, searching for my constellations and planets. The skin of my feet can feel the familiar pulse from the Earth below and my heart begins to calm to it’s rhythm. I sit down on the steps to listen to the nightime orchestra of crickets, bats, and other nocturnal creatures, their song like a lullaby to those who will listen. As my eyes adjust, I can make out the movements of nighttime bunnies, lizards, and other small scavengers all going about their own business. This is the world we all live in. This is the majority of how the planet opportates. A perfectly timed symbiotic relationship between all things that brings beauty and awe to the human eye. I look around to notice I am the only one here. I can see colorful lights from my neighbors TV flashing through their window. I can hear cars driving fast in the distance, racing to get to their destinations, seeing only the traffic lights and completely missing out on what the rest of their world is doing. 

As I refocus on the small patch of nature in front of me, I breathe in slowly wanting to take it all inside of myself; wanting it to take over my distracted mind, longing to fully be a part of it. Because in this moment as I am connecting to my Mother Earth, my home, my planet, my love- something becomes apparent to me. The crickets are singing, they have no idea about politics or what is happening in our government. The trees sway easily, they don’t know about viruses. The stars twinkle, they have not heard the conspiracies. It occurs to me that everything around me is healthy and thriving. The warm breeze brushes through my hair without a care in the world. Life on planet earth is doing what it has always done regardless of what the news reports. I close my eyes. I feel myself root down into the ground like the trees, stabilizing, forgetting about riots and debates. I let the song of the night fully encompass my thoughts as my worries dissolve into these sweet ancient songs- songs that lulled my ancestors to slumber. I take the moment into my breath, inhaling it as if it were my last and letting tears flow on the exhale, finally letting go what I’ve had to hold back all day. Nature does not judge these tears, no- the stars find their reflection in them making my face sparkle and glow. Like jewels sliding down my skin. The breeze softly dries, soothes, and wraps itself around my shoulders. I am embraced by all this planet has for me at that moment. This moment is simply happening because I am here and I am allowing it to. This is what Nature does, what it has always done. I am just engaging and letting myself fit in.

It is this love affair I find myself in that reminds me of the truth about my home. There is very little drama comparatively speaking. Drama that is induced only by a small percentage of the human race. For some reason we all watch this very small drama play out and in doing so we expand it, grow it, feed it, until it is inside of our minds and we become sick with it. We become sick because the drama tells us a lie. It tells us that it is the majority on the planet and that it is the only thing worth looking at. We are the only beings sick with this drama on our planet. The sickness distracts us from what is really going on. But if you walk away from it- easy enough you can just go outside wherever you are. And you really look around, and you really take it all in, you’ll see what I see every night. You’ll remember the truth, and perhaps over time you will reconnect to that truth. And then you will begin to act from that truth and the little drama full of lies will become less and less of a big deal because to you the song of the crickets will become bigger and the trees will become bigger, and the sky full of stars will become the biggest thing you see. The silence will become even bigger than that. There is more silence on this planet than there is violence. More quiet places where no drama is heard at all. There is more good in this world than there is evil. You can make a choice how much of your time the small drama is worth. This is the thing about being a human- we can choose.

My gaze returns to the sky, where the cosmos shines down filling my eyes with wonder. Every night we have an opportunity to see how very small we are in the Universe. We have a chance to see our problems in comparison to the rest of the galaxy. I take the opportunity to feel myself connect to the all encompassing sky, understanding that it would be impossible for me to take it all in, but acknowledging that I am an important part of a vast system that is operating perfectly. 

Every single star and planet, my gentle tilted planet included, are being led by a much greater force. I trust this force. I bow to it, humbly, gratefully, and happily. It is in this moment I begin to hear what the Universe whispers to all things that recognize their place within it. And I am no longer just a girl sitting on her front porch in the middle of the night. I blissfully dissolve into it all. 

Listen to the Universe. It’s always whispering messages. Everything is connected.

Friday, September 4, 2020

Minding Your Mind


As it happens, many people complain about memory, fuzzy brain, unwanted thoughts, and being too easily distracted. You can contribute a lot to having an unclear mind. Diet, stress, lack of rest, lack of joy, and even the inability to delegate and prioritize. I believe that the mind intrinsically prefers to be peaceful. It runs better when we are calm. Whenever we feel unsettled or hazy, it is our mind attempting to help us think or behave in a more pleasant way. I have found two things that go on inside of the mind that lead to unclarity that I would like to help you discover. The misuse of the imagination process and overthinking in the wrong direction. Perhaps you are already realizing you do these things. Let me help you understand what might be happening inside of your mind that is making you feel crazy, ungrounded, and foggy.


An unclear mind is often due to the misuse of the imagination and overthinking in the wrong direction.

The Misuse of Your Imagination

In my book, “What Would Angels Do?” I write in Archangel Michael’s section “Worry is the misuse of your imagination.” We have this amazing ability to conjure visions in our mind. I believe this ability was given to us so that we could envision what we want. This ability allows us to conjure up images that portray a desire. When we can see the desire in our mind, we get excited and we begin to take necessary steps towards that vision. Without our own personal vision, we can get trapped aimlessly working towards somebody else's vision for us. Rarely do we ever feel good when that happens. So our ability to envision ourselves as happy, successful, healthy, and loved is important. Many times we can work out details and understand what is really important in our imagination. The processes of using our imagination leads us into a world of unlimited possibilities. That is so we can see beyond our current circumstances and be led into boundless opportunities and situations. Our imagination is directly related to our intuition and so it is absolutely possible that the hopeful visions we see in our minds are connected to the mind of God. Very often I receive Divine directions from God through daydreams and positive images I conjure up for myself and my family. 

However, if we don’t understand the function of our imagination, or how to properly utilize it, it will go on “automatic mode.” Automatic mode causes a lot of stressful thoughts to happen and if we are on auto too long those stressful thoughts become like a mind hurricane. Much like a wild horse without a bridle, your undisciplined mind will take you places you may not want to go. Visions become worries and fears as it runs unhinged. Because we are programmed to believe in our visions so that we will reach new heights, unfortunately we also believe the darker unruly images when we are in automatic mode. That is why you can have crazy irrational fears that control you and keep you from moving forward. It is so important that we understand what is happening when fearful visions enter our mind. It is an indication that our mind is out of control and it is asking us to reign it back in. The worry that causes your brain to become foggy and slow is a sign that you need to reprocess the mind back to a positive, healthy, happy vision. We have to take it out of automatic and begin to consciously use our imagination in the way it was intended. 

Your body and emotions will tell you when your imagination is in automatic mode. Your heart rate will increase, your face will become sour, and you will start to feel scared. All of these are signs that your body and heart are telling you that your mind is running on automatic and it needs you to immediately envision something happier. Once you begin to consciously and deliberately use your imagination for the purpose it was intended, you will see it run on automatic less and less. You’ll feel like you have a better hold on where it’s going and what images you see. Once you are envisioning positivity again, you will feel your intuition kick in and feel more connected to God and Goddess. This is the best way to utilize your amazing gift of imagining! 

Your imagination is your superpower. Don’t let your imagination be hijacked by others' fear based images. When you are scrolling through a newsfeed or listening to other people being negative, fear based, and stressed out, what you are really seeing is how that person has been misusing their imagination to conjure up the worst case scenarios. A lot of people use worst case scenarios as a self preservation tactic. They think that if they can imagine the worst, they will somehow be prepared for it. And because they care about you, they try to give you their visions so that you too can be freaked out and prepare. But the truth is that 99% of the worst case scenarios we envision never come to pass. All it does is stress you out, fog up your mind, disconnect you from your own intuition, and it is a sign that the imagination has been in auto mode and is running rampant. If you can recognize this, you won’t let your imagination follow anyone down a doomsday path. If you want true Divine guidance in life, stay in charge of what images you choose to see in your mind. With your intuition intact, you will know what to do at all times.

Overthinking In The Wrong Direction

Overthinking is actually an indication that you are focusing too much in the wrong direction. Just like the mind can go into auto mode with the images it conjures up in your mind, it can also run off into a direction that is unproductive and wasteful. If you feel like your mind is on a merry go round and you can’t get off, it’s because the thoughts you are thinking aren’t getting you anywhere. The direction you are trying to take your mind is spinning you back to the place you were when you started thinking about it to try to get you back on track. Imagine your mind is a GPS system and you want to get to a certain destination. Every time you go in the wrong direction, the GPS will reroute you back to the place you got off track. So obsessive thoughts are a sign you are mentally going in the wrong direction and it is time to release those thoughts and redirect yourself to something that feels better. Remember if you feel lost, instead of wandering aimlessly through scenarios, just ask God and Goddess for help. Be still, focus on happier areas of your life, and directions will come. 

I think the easiest way to keep the mind clear is to simply stop yourself and ask- “Are these ugly thoughts or beautiful thoughts?” Beauty is the opposite of a messy mind. Purposely envisioning and thinking about something beautiful will turn your mind around so that it is heading in the right direction. I feel like this is the simplest way to help your mind recalibrate, clear, and revamp.

Right now, you can use your imagination properly and take your mind in the right direction by thinking about things that calm you down. Imagine making a beautiful meal, holding a bouquet of flowers, buying a perfect outfit, sitting in a clean, organized, lovely home, planting something, writing a meaningful poem, a piece of music, think about the sky in your favorite weather, think of someone you love or a pet, imagine the last funny joke you heard, or the last time you felt truly free. Think about your favorite book, movie, song- and imagine how they make you feel. Imagine yourself radiant, happy, peaceful, and enjoying life. What are your happiest thoughts?

You yourself are a work of art- when you notice your own inner beauty your mind will turn in the right direction. If you don’t know what to create, look in the mirror and smile. That is a beautiful creation. Appreciating how far you’ve come and imagining the fun you will have becoming even more… that is definitely taking you in a better direction and is very clearing to the mind.